Thought process is a trap That’s why I avoid it Feelings float on the surface Now you’re paranoid Should dig deeper But can also dig around it Drawing circles in your mind Fill them with what you left behind Try to make it make sense But in the dark you know This is not the way you thought Things will go You never stick to what you do Never give it value Move on quickly, fast forward Before something cuts through Before it cuts through It cuts through Start running when your legs hurt Give yourself an excuse for falling after 40 meters Keep running backwards Give yourself an excuse for never reaching the finish line An ocean away but still drowning Numbers keep growing days keep passing You still think one day, just when you’re at peace Everything will be the way you imagined In your head But it starts with yourself 23 and unaware Pretend to be brave but so damn scared